It brings me immense pleasure to share that I, along with 24 other bloggers are celebrating #9daysofwomanhood throughout Navratri. I thank Neha Sharma who shares her adventures with her adorable little munchkin Nemit, for introducing me. I loved her blog http://growingwithnemit.com on the prompt for today "My delivery"
This story begins with Oas, a fleetingly beautiful creation. I want to tell this story because refusing to do so would mean that I am not acknowledging that Oas was part of me. I am every bit proud of her as I am of Uday.
Uday has a baby sister somewhere over the rainbows. She is now my baby angel.
Oas had come to us as a miracle but the universe had other plans for her. We discovered that she had a congenital disease that could not be cured. This meant that she would have to go. This soul would never take physical form. My delivery was set to be in my fifth month. Labour was induced on the 25th Jan 2016.
My whole world had crumbled and every breath I took was a struggle. It seemed unfair that I would continue breathing and she would not. It seemed unfair that she would not get to see everything I loved about life, the trees, the beautiful flowers, the raindrops, the mesmerizing mountains, the whispering seas, the chirping birds, a dogs carefree run, the strums of the guitar, the music that floats through my veins, the sweetness of an ice cream and MOST importantly the love that my support system had to offer. I wanted to keep her alive in my womb for ever and ever, if that was the only way I could. The labour continued for about 18 hours and I kept telling her how much I loved her. The nurse came and said it was time. I had dilated enough. I didn't want to push and I didn't want to let her go! My baby!
It was while I lay on the hospital bed, that the I had a vision. I had a vision of beautiful girl playing in a beautiful field of gold. She had a magic laughter that would send shivers down your spine. And I was there playing with her in that field, she had her back towards me. It was in that moment that I knew she was going to see everything I wanted her to see. In that moment, I knew she was going to a place beyond beautiful. It was in that moment I knew she knew love. For she WAS love.
I am a positive person and why wouldn't I be? I have an angel who is constantly looking out for us. I thought I'd be her mother, instead she became our guardian angel. She's become my strength. She's become my miracle.
So when Uday was born, she led us through a smooth pregnancy and a smooth delivery. The labour pains must have hurt but I was in a meditative trance. I knew this baby was meant to breathe. We had a different journey to embark on. We shall meet our Oas one day. Until then she'd remain as she is , the love in our hearts.
I believe mothers are magicians and their babies, their best trick ever. I became a magician . . TWICE OVER. ........ I would like to this opportunity to introduce , Harneet, a wonderfully helpful mom and her intriguing story about her little miracles. She blows at https://sublimessagesblog.wordpress..com/2017/09/25my-delivery-story-no-one-knows-about/